Tooth Fairy

I have a 5 year old niece. Her name is Zion.

Zion has probably been the MOST excited person in my family about Beth since she found out Beth was in my stomach at 10 weeks. She is probably the best big cousin Beth could ask for. And she has many to choose from.

Zion has lost 4 teeth so far in the past year. What we tell her is that the Tooth fairy comes to get them and that she gives them to Beth. So when she loses a tooth its helping Beth out because it gives Beth a tooth. Right now Zion is missing her two front teeth. Beth has two teeth now.

The other day when Zion lost her last front tooth she went to her NyaNya's house (We dont say Grandmother we say Nya Nya)She placed her tooth under the pillow and the next morning went to Nya Nya upset and said "The tooth fairy stole my tooth! And left me a dollar!" I told her that was a good exchange. And then I found out the dollar had a 10 on it. I believe when I was younger we got 50 cents for teeth.

Inflation. brought to you by the Tooth Fairy

Beths 2nd tooth

My Beth has gotten through the tough times with this tooth. Already. And is back to her smiling little chubby self. So heres tooth number two. Tooth number one came in Aug 26th. Where did my baby go?

Deciduous trees

The leaves have begun to fall from the trees

The first of the leaves at least.

Beth was born when there was snow on the ground.

I have experienced her first winter

her first summer

and now the beginning of her first fall.....

Has the time slipped away so quickly?

On the 21st of this month Beth will be 7 months old.

Beth has now cut her second tooth.

It makes me shake my head.

So now begins fall and then winter and my baby will be one year old.

When she hits that point I will be 28.

Life changes so quickly.

Beth is the love of my life.

And already she is growing up.

Not a high-heeled Diva

Im on twitter and I notice @Pbttttttttttttt's default pic. Skinny jeans leading to some uber high heels.

I dont wear heels. I dont wear short skirts. Or red lipstick or blush. Or anything with glitter on it.

So anywho I start tweeting about how I wish I could wear a mean ass heel. I mean a serious heel and just strut. A red heel. A short skirt. A button down shirt. a little rouge. And walk... just hit it! Like RuPaul herself taught me how to strut.

In my current state... If I put on heels.... Im liable to kill myself. Im clumsy. Im graceful on the track. Intimidating on the basketball court. Im a fortress of a mother. But sex kitten diva extraordinaire I am not and will most likely never be.

just something that made me go hmmmm

~Ave

IHOP

I am goofy. Silly. Simple. mostly just goofy as all outdoors.

My sister and I went to IHOP with a mutual friend and I almost died laughing.

at what? I cant recall but I know I could not stop laughing.

Good times.

~Ave

Pa-pa Pa-Parazzi

Calla lillies

Because I care. The most important women in my life will be getting Calla Lillies here soon. Not just the flowers but the plant. That way the same way they have nourished and watered me with wisdom throughout my life and helped me grow they can do the same for said plant....

Fast Forward.

Got to see a long time friend.

Its always funny to me when people tell me they like my hair. There are those who genuinely mean it and I can tell they want to ask more questions. There are those who do ask more questions. And then there are those who say it as if I needed their approval in order for me to continue to wear my hair natural.

Sorry, Ive never lived my life in the approval lane.

But to see this friend and he be amazed that in my getting older and becoming a mother and back to being natural again that I am not just beautiful but am more beautiful now than I was at a tender 20 *when we met* does make me giggle.

What I have found that is beautiful about me is not my hair or my accomplishments. Its the calm that I have developed in knowing myself. Im not saying that I am in a steady never ending meditative state of being everyday. Not at all the case. What does happen is I bring myself back to the middle. Regroup and head out again.

I have redefined so much of myself. Does this mean I have changed? Not to me. It means that before whatever I had it labeled, I have gone through sorted and relabeled. Unknowingly so. This understanding of self has brought this calm. This beauty... serenity... this love to the front. And that is what glows. This is my strongest magnet.

*soft sigh*

Onto the rest of the day

~Ave

Uggghhh it begins!

So I want to yell and scream and pull my hair right now... just so I wont have to do it later. :)

I wonder where the calm comes from... should I be waiting for the storm then?

Beth is dealing with 3 more teeth that look like they are terrorizing her gums currently.

My semester has just started.

I have lost so much weight from nursing Beth that I do not fit ANYTHING in my closet properly. No really. Should that be a complaint? Probably not. But to go from 161 pre-Beth to 215ish the day of giving birth to Beth and now 6 months post-beth 143lbs... Thats quite an issue.

*eye roll*

Right now... drill. Time to put on my Big Sarge hat for the weekend.

p.s. My advice to all new mothers regardless of age. if you want to lose the weight without working out. Nurse. With a vengeance. Be dedicated completely and utterly and your body will not fail you. On either shore.

~Ave

Sir, Are you bitter?

When you have accepted everything for what it is and want no changes... dont want to go backward... and only want to go forward... You cannot be bitter.

But to always be angry and full of spite denotes your unsettled being. I dont understand that. Well not now. I was that way over 7 years ago. But experience is the greatest creator of Wisdom.

Today I understand why I had to go through what I did in my past so that I would be prepared for today.

I see beauty in all things around me. I see the opportunity for growth, I accept my newfound wisdom and admire my unknown maturity.

Thank you.

A lesson.

An English professor wrote the words, “Woman without her man is nothing” on the blackboard and directed his students to punctuate it correctly.

The men wrote: “Woman, without her man, is nothing.”
The women wrote: “Woman: Without her, man is nothing.”