The things we dont remember

I honestly cannot recall being happy
with you
for a long span.
It makes me wonder what about that time
makes you so upset its gone?
To look at it as if it is
the good days gone
When the good days ended long before that for me.

I guess... I dont even speculate. I dont strive to understand. Try to make amends. I do nothing. I cant even imagine.

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I am the thickener to the plot.... In love with the company when Im alone... Searching for the endless.

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empty threats

are just that.

regardless we are north and south
no matter what is east and west.

And there you have it

I battle not with you but with your indecisivie nature. Make a decision. stand by it. work for it... fight for it. regret it never. I will allow you to walk away no strings attached. I will not tug at heart strings or any other attachment. Just realize that with that first step I do not want you to retrace steps to try to find me. Because I will not be at that place where you left me. YThe patient and loving and loyal kind for you. No I will have completely moved. Never to be found my heart forever hidden never to be seen by you..

So move Ive only been waiting for you to finally get out of view so that I can run dance and skip away into the light at the end of this tunnel :)

Touched.

Romancing The Stone


With you, I am romancing the stone.
Yet, you would never leave me alone,
Insensitive to my advances,
Inexorable to my glances,
nonetheless, you accept my blood donation,
Rescuing you when in need of salvation.
Always luring me back to your embrace,
then, letting me down without grace,
always falling back into disgrace.
A rock you are, your heart is of stone,
Colliding into my heart that bleeds alone.

nermin nazim

He said She said....

I said this has to end. we arent moving forward we are something like stuck in the most enjoyable rut because no matter what we do if we arent working towards a goal then we have done nothing but wasted time in pleasures that should not be felt.

He said he agreed... And as we turned to walk away it hit us just like in the movies and we turned back around running back to the arms of the one lover with the power to build the world around us or set fire to the world never to come back. We build when in each others love and destroy when we are devoid of it. We fight for each other in each others arms and when we are away a second too long we fight each other.

He said I feel like we are on a secret mission. No one knows what we are doing we just do. Oh but I thought this was the time to walk away again....I thought we had this one part figured out and it was ok bc no feelings would be expressed we would only deal with the heat emanating from each others bodies and compliment how our skin compliments one another. I thought that it wouldnt be about our love anymore.... And yet it lingers.

He said... but he does... and my reaction is equal and yet opposite. I say.... but then i do....

Maybe we will figure it out at a later date until then my favorite part is the 2 hour conversations in the wee hours of the morning just because you cant hold me as I go to sleep...

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