Sunday, February 20, 2011

Beth is turning 1

WOW...

I remember those first 2 weeks. I was scared I was going to do something horribly wrong and she wasnt gonna make it. Scared I wasnt gonna feed her enough. or not care for her correctly. Or drop her or fall down the steps while holding her. I was delirious with paranoia that lasted basically this whole year. I am creeping slowly away from new mommy syndrome. Ive kicked the habit of separation anxiety. My stomach no longer feels empty without the presence of her life in my belly but my heart is full of a love that I cannot even describe if I knew every eloquent word ever recorded in mans speaking history. Nothing could do any justice to express how this Year ONE with Elizabeth was.

She made it. I made it. We made it. I did something right. Or maybe not so horribly wrong as I thought that I would. Im such a mom now though. Its funny to notice the changes.

Beths bday party was yesterday. We are preparing to attend another party today. I am abundantly blessed. My family is perfect and whole with the addition of Elizabeth and I cannot imagine my right now without her.

Happy Birthday to my first born child Elizabeth Grace. Mommy Loves you!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Tell me why....

Hindu

http://www.koausa.org/Gods/

so this is something I loved. Glad I found the site.

Monday, January 10, 2011

2010 Youve been replaced...

Not that you had any choice.

Dont hold on though. Just hold onto your pride. Because anything less will make you look like a fool. Or foolish. or whatever....

It is so hard to believe that Ive moved on? 2011 and I are getting along. We are having "fun" its been good to me so far. I mean I know how I do though... by the time 2012 comes around I will want to move onto that too but for right now Im gonna just chill with 2011 and see what she brings to the table.

Forward motion. I would never go back to 2009. Always something new here. Not like you have a choice though. So baby this is my goodbye. It was good while it lasted and I will always carry you in my heart. But 2010 is over. And 2011 is here in all its newfound glory.... Hope you understand.

~Signed~
The New Me

Sunday, December 26, 2010

I birth NATIONS

"If you educate a man, you educate an individual. If you educate a woman, you educate a nation." - Charles Kwegyir Aggrey.

#Truth

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Can I sum it up?

2010.

I cant remember it. It was a blur. the only two constants were Beth and school.

I assume i ate as I am still alive. I assume I slept as I am not currently sleepy but I promise I cant remember this year.

Its a sad state of affairs.

Do I look forward to next year? IDK. I look forward to like 3 years from now. When my goals have been met. We will see what the next year holds.

the constants will be Beth, School and work. Everything else can fall where it wants. I will figure out the rest as time goes on.

Merry Christmas

Beths First Christmas.

Beautiful.

Wonderful.

Heartachingly beautiful.

I love my family.